Tired...

There's definitely something goin on..."Memories Don't Live Like People Do...They Always Remember You...Whether things are good or bad...It's just the memories." I can't stop dreaming about a unicorn that has recently reappeared in my mind and will it ever stop...will i ever stop i dunno. But she's always in my head. Elegence stands before yet it doesn't ignite a room quite like her...The way she moves befuddles me...similar to a dancing flame...and when she speaks...damn, my heart melts, but that's just her physical but her intellect humors me, because i don't believe it's there, then again that could be a facade, or just a cheap why of saying that "i'm not interested..." or "try a little harder..." in other words...there's something i'm missing. I'm not tall enough, smooth enough...is that i don't drop enough lines, or my pockets are full of dimes, the money that jingles...not the one that folds. But when you speak to me my words torchers your mind...so you'll never find...i won't say never. She is clearly the Epiphany of what i dream, yet as shallow as a puddle...

Yet there's another one who is on my nerves, and why let it bother me u ask...hell i dunno; i've stopped and it started and i've stopped and it started...so i'm tired of it...i don't try to please everybody, but i'm even there for my enemies, because i know that i'm better than how they treat me...when they see that they'll think differently, and then again some will, think the same...The way i've treated you...like the queen that you're suppose to be, but to me now you are a jester...because what you do...funny...i guess that's enough said.

But people are constantly telling (nagging) me that i'm wasting my time, and the time of my love because i don't hear wedding bells...what the fuck u expect...i'm deaf! I don't see a marrying future with anybody, i live day to day...and i refuse to plan my life around people who are subject to change...understand me...i'm in love, and if she's the one she will be...and if not...then she'll always be my friend, and i'll always love her, and we would have molded each other for whoever else we encounter...so let us live our lives. She loves me...i love her...we're in love...and who's to say she is, but who's to say she isn't...I'll just live it...one day at a time...